goes by the name veron (english) or wanting (chinese). a definitive leo born august 1, 1984. a solo traveler. loves cats, coffee, sensual music, yummy food and technology. when she's not at her job as an IS developer for the government, she's likely to be out dining, or visiting an interesting art gallery or event.
hey people, i’m feeling a little under the weather. been overworked. burned out. it’s ironic that at a time when there is the most amount of work that needs to be done, i procrastinate even more. i am sad that i haven’t been able to update this blog as regularly as i wished to. this is just a update to let you guys know what’s going on.
at the moment i am still recovering from a bad sore throat, with ulcers and all. i get this every few months because all the deep-fried and grilled food that i subject my body to. the little amount of fluids that i do take tend to come from alcohol and coffee. no wonder i fell sick!
right now i’m kinda worried about the amount of work that’s building up (and it’s definitely not getting any lesser!). my creativity juices are running dry and confidence level is running thin. a lot of the things that i used to believe in, i’m starting to have doubts. boy, i’ve even stopped bothering about how i look! it’s like i’ve totally let go of myself.
i so want to inject the same passion into my work and relationships as i’ve done before. back in february i had written a post on living with passion. now it seems kinda hypocritical that i’m not able to live up to my own words. i’m just feeling so tired… i don’t feel excited about anything anymore.
lately, i wonder why i keep getting disappointed by people. maybe it’s due to the fact that i’m a perfectionist. other people will never live up to my idea of perfection. in the words of one of my favorite writers, anais nin:
“We are like sculptors, constantly carving out of others the image we long for, need, love or desire, often against reality, against their benefit, and always, in the end, a disappointment, because it does not fit them.”
perhaps i’m looking for all the things i need in the wrong places. and that’s why i’ll never find them.
whatever it is, i’ll get over it. no worries, folks! here’s to a quick recovery of spirit and morale!
(and i do need to recover fast. there is a huge load of work that needs to be done.)
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Hey, it looks like you need a break from everything. I think some time off (not too much since you got so much work) might do you some good actually. View all comments by arzhou (adrian)
You’re absolutely right, except that I can’t take a break. Things will work out. They always do. View all comments by Veron
That’s life for ya :) and you are right, well as long as you keep moving forward things will be fine View all comments by arzhou (adrian)
I’ve had days like these before and wanted to just cry. Once I was through it though, I realized how it was all in the mind. Take regular breathes and chug along. Soon you’ll pull through and pat yourself on the back knowing how you’re actually much stronger than you realize. :) View all comments by Kevin
Thanks Kevin. I guess I’ve always known that most of it lies in the mind. Overcoming that first obstacle and getting started, therein lies the challenge. View all comments by Veron
I felt the same way at my old work place. Prob its time to re-evaluate your workload and drop some things - for your sanity’s sake.
Or do something inspirational - ask yourself: What am i passionate for? Think abt the reason behind the season. What is your first love?
Think abt the person who inspired u to do what u are doing now. What would he/she have done if he/she was in ur position?
Hope u recover your passion & creativity soon.
Michael View all comments by Miccheng
hey veron, TOTALLY understand how that feels. TRUST ME! :P mm… perhaps you can try sourcing for some form of “coping mechanisms (CM)” to help u manage burnt out symdromes? for me, i’d use to go hit some balls at the driving range or play a short 9 hole game (which i can’t anymore now cos of my back)… well, have u found your own “CM”? View all comments by GENIE
Miccheng: Ironically, the person that inspires me the most (work-wise) is a workhorse himself! His work attitude is so intense, I can never do the same. Perhaps I need another role model.
GENIE: I drink to cope, although I’m starting to think that alcohol, being a depressant, probably isn’t a wholly good idea! View all comments by Veron
Perhaps its time to come face to face with your obssession with perfection. Its not about the result but the fact that you try. Remember drink lotsa plain water even it means ending up with a bloated stomach. View all comments by ZK
I will try to drink lotsa plain water! Heck, I already have a bloated stomach!
The perfection thing’s gonna be a little tricky. I can’t even decide if seeking perfection is a good or a bad thing. View all comments by Veron
u know wat? ME drink to cope too. but for obvious reasons (my bronchitis?!) i cant drink these days. plus the cannot-play-golf-cos-of-my-back is really making me depressed. but hey, drinking helps! not excessive tho! :) you do wine? red wine’s healthy! lets’ do it tog when you are depressed!!! :) View all comments by GENIE
fellow colleague, hope u will get over this ‘low’ period soon. View all comments by tyc76
Times like this, we always tend to focus on the wrong thing. Try looking on the brighter side of life and things will definitely get better when you’re positive. *pats* I’m hoping that the workload will lessen and that you’ll feel much better soon!
Gahh, programming never fail to make me look really shagged! Haha. Take good care of yourself! *hugs* :) View all comments by Huimei
hi.. i have been looking at yahoo about food and found your blog a few months ago.. i tink its great n i really enjoyed reading ur blog.. =) keep it up ger..
read tt u r feeling stressed up n tired these few days huh.. y nt take a walk at the beach? it always calms me down just looking out at the sea..
u can do it ger.. believe in urself.. dun b discourage k.. =) View all comments by shan
If seeking perfection is hindering you, its a bad thing because its suppose to drive you… not crazy though. View all comments by ZK
We all have dreams and aspirations, and someday we suffer setbacks. Well, just hang on there and things will be well. If you feel that everything is in a bad shape, just take a break and it will help.
Take care & best regards. View all comments by BL
Sometimes, behind the drive for perfection lies the fear of failing, the fear of falling down in front of others.
Yet falling down is how I learn my lessons. This thing is out of bounds and that brings me pain. The paradox then begins, when I learn what is painful and avoids it; when I redo what is tantamount to success.
In that repetition of cycles, I lose what I treasure most and Faith departs from me. View all comments by The old aristocrat
Veron, the reason is because you are capricorn. Capricorn always aim big and ambitious, and start up big. But very soon, as Capricorn become more mature and smarter, capricorn will start to climb the hill one at a time, meaning breaking everything into small task and persistently overcome the small task. Most capricorn find success when they adopted this way of working, and only very few astrological sign is able to accomplish anything big like Capricorn because Capricorn is known to overcome all adversity, have astonishing persistence and patience. All other signs probably give all half-way through. View all comments by bigmac
Hey bigmac, I’m actually a Leo and very proud to be one (that in itself is already a Leo trait). Thanks anyway! View all comments by Veron
Babe, i know you are definitely feeling lousy at this moment. i felt that way when i have so much work yet so little time. the best stress-buster is to finish all the work, i’ll stop other personal things and do do do my work till completion. understand what is the main cause of depression, then work on the cause, after that you can relax and do whatever that cheer you up. we will be here for you! Jiayou! View all comments by Xanthe
yeah, leo are good! :)
for me i think it is nice to just spend time doing something you enjoy after work. Perhaps watch an epsiode of heroes, etc. :)
at least that is how i deal with fustration, after work go cafe and do what i enjoy :)
anyway do take care and smile :D View all comments by astroboy
wow! that quote by anais nin is really apt and true! human beings aren’t perfect, so don’t place ur hopes in them. just wanna let u know that after reading ur blog for over a yr by now, i love it so much!! to the extent that i’ll make it a point to visit the places u’ve recommended! if veron says it’s good, it must be! hope u get recharged real soon and bounce back up! ;) View all comments by dlgr-fellow leo
OMG you must be my sweetest reader! You totally made my day. View all comments by Veron
drink lots of water, it helps :) get well soon! View all comments by Jacelyn
Yes! U bet! When Veron says it’s good, it must be! That’s the words! and i swear by your name, whenever ppl ask me about good food, i will send them your website on the various recommendations! Cheer up babe! View all comments by Xanthe
Hope you feel better soon Veron. I heard there are really affordable plane flights this month.
Cheers. View all comments by Harro!
This is exactly what I feel this year. The more I procrastinate, the more the work pile up. It is not that I don’t have things to do, it is like I have a thousand things to do but I simply had no desire to even make a dent in all the things I need to do. That’s when I decided that I need a break, to re-evaluate what is important and how my life is going to be. I’ll be flying off for a solo break soon for a week.
If a trip abroad is not feasible, for me a long bus trip to the airport with my ipod blaring my fav music sometimes will do the trick.
And take a look at this website. Usually when I saw so much love around, I simply cheered up.
http://www.stomp.com.sg/lovein/loveproject.html
Hang in there, you are not alone. View all comments by Audrey
Hmmm…. I don’t know if I should say this but I think that your situation arises partially because you are a square peg in a round hole (or a round peg in a square hole?). I always thought you would do better in an environment that is creative, free flowing and with lots of spontaneity and room for experimentation. My first impression was that it isn’t really you but heck who am I to judge right?
Other than drinks (I drink red every night), some exercise may help too. View all comments by Walter
Hey
I luv ur blog and though I dun personally know u, I read your blog as it motivates me and it is interesting (and of course fer the food reviews!).
I hope u are feeling better now (esp wif knut cheering u up!) but just to encourage u a little more, i juz wanna say that u gotta look at the number of comments u got; proves that u’ve got frenz who care, pple who aren’t even ur frenz but who care too! and never ever forget to count your (many) blessings.
Do watever that haf helped in the past to relax and recharge. some tips work, some dun, do watever that suits u, abeit blasting music, meditation, exercise, chilling out with frenz, watching TV or a movie, reading, retail therapy, blogging, eating, going fer walks, playing with ur pet, etc. u get the idea! =P
Oh, and I happen to chance on this website where pple post how they get inspired…here’s hoping it inspires u and help u get yer creative juices flowing again!
http://www.inspirationbit.com/group-project-source-of-inspiration/
cheers! =) View all comments by Jzin
Heaps of water..fruits..vit c….the rate you’re goin..you’re not only gonna be headin towards a massive burn-out but also high cholesterol and heart attack..
Cut back on the oil and grease … View all comments by Jae
Heya Veron,
Really sad to hear how things have gotten you down recently… I mean when we met just a month and a bit ago, you came across as a fun-loving, bright-eyed, enthusiastic person, who was looking forward to the future and all it had to offer.
That said, I can totally relate to what you’re going through - everyone burns out now and then. You just need to take some time out, think about what’s best for you, then get back to making yourself happiest.
I look forward to seeing the usual Veron back…hang let me rephrase that…
I look forward to seeing a new, improved, more focused, and ultimately happier Veron back real soon!
:)
Noel View all comments by Noel
Veron, you won’t believe it, but I only just came through a really bad cold too! I was down for 4 days, and my projects are all piling up!
The bugs have a nefarious plan to infect all busy people at the same time! If only we can have some additional anti-virus to help the anti-virus already built in the body…. View all comments by pkchukiss
Wishing you speedy recovery of the spirit and morale. And yes, good health to you.
And may your creative juices resurface themselves. View all comments by py
“I read and walked for miles at night along the beach, writing bad blank verse and searching endlessly for someone wonderful who would step out of the darkness and change my life. It never crossed my mind that that person could be me.”
~Anna Quindlen View all comments by Alvin
well, i guess Knut and penguins in JurongBirdPark have already make you stand on your feet by now! hope you the best yet to come!
look at these positive comments! really seldom to find such blogs these days! you are ‘virtually’ loved!
from now, i will visit your blog from time to time, please keep those food reviews coming! it’s really nice to know that there are people out there know and crave for good food like you do
cheers! View all comments by fakhrur
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