goes by the name veron. a definitive leo born august 1, 1984. a solo traveler. loves cats, coffee, sensual music, yummy food and technology. when she's not at her job as an IS developer for the government, she's likely to be out dining, or visiting an interesting art gallery or event.
it’s amazing how strong i can be sometimes, and crumble just as easily at other times. people who have known me for an extended number of years view me as a very strong person. yet few, or rather no one has ever seen me at my most vulnerable self.
i don’t know whether i am really as tough as i think i am, or has there always been an invisible wall shielding me? the moment i let my guard down, the wall crumbles, and i am reduced to a pathetic heap of tears.
people always say that the more troubles you overcome, the stronger you become. do you really become stronger? or do you simply become more indifferent and numb altogether? can time really heal all wounds? or does it just get us used to the pain?
i have been run down time and again. the wall simply gets thicker each time. i wait for the day when someone would overcome that wall and see my vulnerability. he would embrace me for it, nurse me, and not judge me. he would no longer take advantage of my vulnerability. in return i will give him my heart and my soul, and take good care of his as well.
james blunt’s album, “back to bedlam” is one of the best albums i’ve heard in recent years. the lyrics are very powerful, with each song as poignant as the next. i can’t help but put the entire album on my jukebox. feeling quite guilty as i do this, so please listen quickly and quietly. immerse in his world, and possibly mine.
“And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore.
Only sadness.”
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just try to concentrate on the coming exam for now. dun think so much.
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Time heals all wounds…hmm.
Does each experience make us stronger? Well, taking a blister as an analogy, I would say, yes, it does. It’s a new baptism of fire everytime, but we learn to deal with it.
If nothing more than immunizing us against the pain, we tend to become cynics of ourselves. Take it lightly, a pinch of salt, a modicum of dignity, and we’ll all be better off.
What we can’t immunize against is simply anticipation of the pain .
Relax, and let nature take its course. Concentrate on what’s ahead (the exams) and just tell yourself to hold it together for this baptism of fire.
You’ll only get stronger. View all comments by harrison
hmmm…..
i find myself in he same dilemma as you, but i dunno whether the cause is the same. I appear slightly dao and independent looking… pp get this feeling that we are confident, and independent… but i feel that i also have this wall that separates me from other… the fear of being hurt … fear that letting my real self out will cause me to lose my friends… I wanna tell u, that i dunno wats hiding within ur walls, i empathise with you and d focus on yr exams. I am also tryin my darnest to focus on mine… View all comments by Sean
Yo, btw, Harrison, thanks for the comments that you’ve posted on her blog… it helps not oni her but many others too. View all comments by Sean
Yo, btw, Harrison, thanks for the comments that you’ve posted on her blog… it helps not oni her but many others too. View all comments by Sean
u have an incredible awesome space….i am really getting crazy n jealous after seeing ur space…..its damn outrageous…..well i have added u in my buddies…hope u visit by my space and leave a comment and help me out if i need any time. View all comments by juhi
hey babe, it’s ok to be "weak", or cry. call me if u wanna talk abt it ya. can meet for dinner too~ :P View all comments by my
all the best ahead and supremely belated congrats on winning. one is so out of touch… View all comments by Aristocrat
thanks to all those who left comments. right now i’m trying to focus on my exams, and i think i’ve done a pretty good job so far. all the best to all those who are sitting for their papers too. View all comments by Veron
Crying doesn’t make one weak, neither does putting on a brave front makes one strong. To be strong means to take each bad experience and turn it into a learning experience, to see that its the bad things that help us appreciate all the good and little things in our lives… View all comments by vampire
“If you think a weakness can be turned into a strength, I hate to tell you this, but that’s another weakness” - Jack Handy
:) View all comments by Marc