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goes by the name veron (english) or wanting (chinese). a definitive leo born august 1, 1984. a solo traveler. loves cats, coffee, sensual music, yummy food and technology. when she's not at her job as an IS developer for the government, she's likely to be out dining, or visiting an interesting art gallery or event.
due to the 7-pointer earthquake in taiwan, the internet in singapore slowed to a crawl for the most of yesterday. i had such a hard time getting through the day, especially since i NEED to use the internet at work! thank god it was working fine when i got home, and i could finally check my email. it’s my main connection to friends abroad. and for most of the day, i lost that connection.
then, i came in to work early this morning to find that the internet is crawling again, for the second day in a row! argh! for some reason i am feeling so pissed off, like nothing is going right. as i told my friend, it’s the way an addict would feel without his drug. seriously, i am feeling so angry even though there’s really no one to be angry at. and i do recognise that fact.
maybe it’s because i haven’t touched a drop of alcohol for the past two nights.
the period of low that always creeps in by the following morning and shadows throughout the day is hardly worth it.
maybe it’s because i haven’t had a real holiday in quite a while.
bali didn’t count. i was there to write a review of the resort, for heaven’s sake. dallas didn’t count. i was there to work.
maybe it’s because i feel misunderstood.
people hardly make the effort to get to know someone. they tend to forget that everyone has several layers. the outer layer stands out the most, but it also matters the least.
maybe it’s because for the first time, i see how ugly people really are.
selfishness, self-centeredness, objectification of women, male chauvinism, lack of empathy. hell, i can rattle off a whole list and it still wouldn’t fully describe what i see everyday.
maybe it’s because there are so many things i’m not satisfied with in my life.
maybe it’s because i haven’t found fulfillment.
maybe it’s because i know i probably never will.
i know some of you have already thought of other reasons. anyway, james blunt managed to tame the beast within. i seriously love the man. my current favorite track from his album is tears and rain. right-click, save as, you know the drill.
James Blunt — Tears And Rain.mp3 (3.78mb)
maybe all i need is a break. a solid one.
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There’s a lot of angst in this post. I can feel it right thru the screen. Calm down, girl. It’s just a phase :)
Now, the Internet breaking down is really a matter of concern. At least you could check your mails. I couldn’t access gmail or google since yesterday. Not to mention a lot of other sites that I frequent. I feel deprived. Almost like I am back in the Stone Age or something. Hopefully this wouldn’t last for long, else it’d really be the Stone Age.
BTW I was pleasantly surprised that your site was accessible :) View all comments by Beni
I didn’t actually realise there was so much angst in there. You’re the second person to mention that! Well I suppose I’m going through one of those days.
It’s incredible how much we all depend on the Internet. So you were affected too. No wonder I haven’t received your email! Anyway it seems to be working fine now. View all comments by Veron
Oh forgot to tell you. James Blunt was looking for you. To file a lawsuit. Watch out ;) View all comments by Beni
Ya know, that’s actually kinda scary. View all comments by Veron
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